Ode to the last one

Dear ______,
I am sorry,
I am sorry I gave up on you,
I am sorry I gave up on us,
Silly me, I thought we had something special.
It wasn't, I wasn't, but you were.
You were so special that I could die and breathe for you again,
So special that I could walk in flaming fire and not feel any pain,
So special that I was ready to leave everything behind if you had just asked me to.....
Why did it take so long to dawn upon me?
Why couldn't I understand that it was right there on my face, that it was all about you.

I loved you so much,
You had the power to make me feel at the top of the world and go weak on my knees at the same time.
I always felt what you said and what you felt were absolutely opposite,
How wrong was I!
I had to realise so painfully that I was just another distraction for you in your journey, and for me you were my partner on this path.
I don't regret even a single second of loving you,
It was just like loving my own self.
Every fibre of my body had your named embedded on it,
For you I was just vestigial.
I wish for a second you had paused and thought about me before you threw me away,
For a second I wish you had reflected on the moments we had spent with each other being raw,
For a second I wish you remembered I loved you.